I’ve been feeling really weird lately. I want to write more, and not just in this blog but actual novels. I have ideas but getting them on paper…er…Google Docs (?) is challenging for me.

I’ve always felt in everything I do that I’m an impostor, riding off the backs of others and doing the bare minimum to keep myself hidden from the reality that is how I am not very good at that thing (whatever it is).

But writing, man. I really love to write, but when I do I feel like it could always be better. More flowery, more metaphorical, more poetic. That isn’t really my style, though. It isn’t who I am. A friend (who is a published poet might I add) showed me a blog written by this man she likes today. It seemed like his words flowed so effortlessly. They were poetic and filled with references to literature and nature that I couldn’t even begin to write. Mainly because I have the memory of a dead fly, and I don’t remember things until I have to or am reminded. I just halfway wish my words were as beautiful.

I guess that, I just like doing this. I feel like if I wrote more eloquently I’d have more readers, which isn’t really the point, and the truth is that I’d have more if I actually kept a schedule going and followed through with it!

I’m not looking for any kind words or encouragement. I just wanted to word vomit some things, that’s my style, word vomit. Short, straightforward word vomit. It works for me. <3

So first off, the bots. I know I need to write more but I can always tell how long I’ve been neglecting my blog based on the number of fake/bot comments I get. I particularly like the ones telling me how to “meet matures” or giving me “dating for seniors reviews”. Those are my faves.

Can we also talk about how insane 2020 has been though? With everything that’s going on most of us just ignored the Pentagon releasing footage of UFOs! Which, I know, I should have already been on this! But damn, life is crazy.

Let’s talk about that though. UFOs, so there’s proof now right? According to CNN, the videos were first released privately, then the Navy supposedly approved them as legitimate last year!

The government still has not confirmed that these are extra terrestrial phenomena but they are calling them “unidentified aerial phenomena”. In the videos you can hear the naval aviators who took the footage talking about what they were seeing, one of them says “there’s a whole fleet of them!” They excitedly talk about how fast the UFOs were moving and defying laws of physics.

This is exciting as Hell! The pentagon is (sort of) confirming what many have believed in forever! It was pretty selfish for us to not believe in life outside of our planet, and it’s pretty hard to say there definitely is not or would never be life outside of Earth, considering there’s life here!

Either way, whether or not this case IS aliens for certain doesn’t matter. The videos are cool, and no one is saying they AREN’T UFOs, so that’s promising!

The link to the CNN article is below and a TikTok (I know, I know) that I found funny on this case, and also has some strong language so..you know, watch out for that (also it is satire, I felt compelled to say that).